Time Wasters

I have been thoroughly enjoying the rush of posts in the last few days - all of the ones I have been reading seem to be filled with good and/or positively entertaining news. Thank you so much and well done!! I am so sorry if you have received sad news and are now wondering what freakin' planet I am on - I assure you I have not read your post and my biggest warmest hugs reach out to you my friend!

As for me - I am almost into that next final week that leads up to another milestone scan and therefore am getting all itchy scratchy again!! Our 20 week scan (yes it's a biggie!) is due on March 31st and so by April 1st I may well have hyper-ventilated myself into one hell of an anxious messy state on the floor!! Joy.

Anyway - as per usual I am looking for useless mindless tasks that help me to pass the time (that ISN'T housework or real work related) - and last weekend I got it into my head that I needed to know - in table form - what the last 10 years of infertilty has looked like!!! Yeah I know - some people get a pet!!

So I went through all of my diarys and re-lived the light and dark days of our infertility 'challenge'. The table below will most likely cause your eyes to cross over and your brain to ache so I don't really expect you to read it - but it has certainly helped me to see our struggle in a snap shot - and to reflect on why we have become the people we are (perhaps) today. Fancy being able to condense so much pain into such a tiny little piece of paper! Has anyone else done this exercise??

My husband and I started our 'challenge' in 2002 and by 2005 had lost 4 naturally conceived pregnancies (before 10 weeks).

We then hopped on the 'IVF Train' and had NO IDEA of the itinerary and if we HAD known the itinerary - we would have got back OFF the bloody train IMMEDIATELY and just emailled SCI that afternoon!!!!!

But ..... we didn't .... so we couldn't and you know how it goes - what doesn't kill you makes you stronger so we are Mr and Mrs Strongo-bongo from the Congo ha ha hear us ROAR!!

So here's my very pretty chart that no-one will be able to understand that has helped me waste a good 6 hours in its production! We are yet to experience the joy of parenthood - so to everyone else - like us - waiting on the next bit of scan news Love Love LOVE to you!!!

Jacaranda xx
     

Own ICSI Cycles 2005 - 2008	Eggs Retrieved	Eggs Fertilised	Eggs Frozen	Eggs Arrested (or did not make to freeze/transfer)	No. Eggs Transfrd
1st	2	2	-	1	1
2nd	8	6	3	1	2
FET	-	-	-	-	2
FET	-	-	-	-	1
3rd	(3 follicles but 0 eggs)	-	-	-	-
4th	2	2	0	1	1 (5th pregnancy)
5th	2	1	0	1	0
6th	6	5	0	3	2
7th	5	1	0	1	0
8th	2	0	0	2	0
OWN TOTALS	27	17	3	10	9
(then) Aussie Friend(s) Donor Egg ICSI Cycles 2008 - 2010
9th	13	11	2	8	1 (6th pregnancy)
FET	-	-	-	-	1
FET	-	-	-	-	1
10th	28	14	2	10	2 (7th pregnancy)
(then) Frozen (Aussie Donor Egg + Own Sperm) Embryo transferred to Indian Surrogate 2011	-	-	-	-	2
(then) Indian Egg Donor + Own (frozen) Sperm ICSI Cycle using Indian Surrogate 2011 - 2012	?	?	?	?	2 (8th ‘pregnancy’)
Grand TOTALS	68+	42+	7+	28+	18