Thumb Twiddling Time

I do not have ANY exciting news today but just needed to touch base.

There are 8 more sleeps left before our '16 week' scan on March 1st and I think I am developing a stomach ulcer. Not really but I like to errr on the side of melo-dramatic. I cannot get our next scan out of my head and no amount of distracting activities will do it.

Our trip down to New Zealand was absolutely wonderful - many laughs and good food in spectacular settings. It was LOVELY! Our (3 person) part of the 'Remarkable Seven' (me + husband + friend) only got to stay for 8 days, while the 'others' got to stay on for 14 (lucky). So we only got to see the South Island with overnighters in Christchurch, Hokitika, Haast, Queenstown (3 nights), Dunedin (a castle!) and Wellington (once we had broken away from the main group). We said we were on a "Protiki Tour" that put us halfway between a 'Contiki Tour' and a 'Probus Group' ha ha. Well we thought it was funny! As such we did not Bungy Jump (some more regretful about this than others) but we did go White Water Rafting, Jet Boating and down a 'Luge' themed structure on purpose built 'Go-carts'.

Now that we are back home I still have 3 more weeks of annual leave to go and sometimes that is not such a good thing! Too much thinking time!! Too much Thumb Twiddling! At least my husband - who works away in Oil & Gas fields (2 weeks away : 2 weeks home)  is home again after only one week this time so thats great. Having him around certainly helps BIG TIME!! He can still make me laugh after 16 years of knowing him.

We are keeping our expectations around about ground level but every now and then we allow ourselves the luxury of a little 'what if...' scenario. Of the warm and fuzzy variety. But almost as quickly we stop and seriously our hearts turn to lead because we are are just so damaged and we can't really imagine this pregnancy going to term. Yes - we've made it further than ever before - and we have the smallest glimmer of hope - but we have been through too much and all of our 'ignorance is bliss' chromosomes have been taken away and disposed of. It's tough when you can never actully 'enjoy' a pregnancy.

Man! I need to get out into the garden now (which is struggling to survive our February - water quality here is dire) - or perhaps go for a bone jarring ride on my bike out to the farm. Anything to avoid this rising anxiety anyway!  Too early for a beer? Lunchtime - yes too early! I'll start making lunch then!! That's what I'll do!!

Thank you for listening.

Over and Out!

Jacaranda XX               

Blimey!

I am really happy to report a new PB!!!

According to the email this morning (opened squinting through one eye and holding my breath until I was purple) we have officially made it past the first 12 weeks!!!!! I am soooo relieved - I know that our mountain ahead is still extremely steep - but just for today I am going to smile -  and relax - and enjoy the 'longest pregnancy I have ever been a part of'!!! I have been smiling on the inside all day!! Pheeew it's so nice to have some good news up your sleeve for a change and not a heavy ol' heart that is dragging around behind you!!

Anway - for my show and tell today here is what our report is saying now....

• HR 168 Bpm
• Approx gestational age 12 weeks 3 days
• BPD 17 mm
• HC 65 mm
• CRL 55mm
• Nuchal Lucency 0.9 mm
• Nasal bone seen
• Ductus venosus shows normal flow

Of course I have absolutely nothing to compare these figures with so am unable to tell where we're at exactly but am comforted with the accompanying SCI email - "Please note that Dr. Shivani has reviewed the reports & found everything fine. In view of the same her next scan will be done within one month." 
                                                                    
So there you go! Blimey indeed!!

We are flying down to New Zealand tomorrow morning with a lovely group of friends and this news has just made it so much sparklier!!! Thank you so MUCH for the wonderful notes you are adding to my blogs ! I am really begining to LOVE this new Blog World and I hope we can all enjoy a lovely L-O-N-G relationship!!!

You are still the only ones that know our secret!! 

Jacaranda XX